Friday, December 20, 2013

Mengejar Cinta-Nya

Sukarnya menjadi pencinta yang setia, mencintai Dia yang memberikan cinta. Kasih sayang-Nya sentiasa menyelimuti diri, namun Tuhan yang tidak kelihatan membuatkan diri sering terleka & lupa akan segala nikmat-Nya.

"Allahu Akbar! Akbar!"

Untuk kesekian kalinya suara azan memanggil menyembah Tuhan Yang Esa. Namun pada waktu itulah nafsu bertarung, sama ada ingin terus melekat dengan cinta dunia, atau bangkit mengejar cinta-Nya. Ada yang sedang berjual-beli, dengan cara jual belinya. Ada yang sedang melayan Facebook, dengan cara mereka pula. Masing-masing dengan cara tersendiri, bagaimana kita ini tanpa sedar sedang meminggirkan cinta Ilahi.

Lalu di mana Allah di hati kita?

Berhenti Sebentar

Suara azan kedengaran. Untuk kita yang sedang melayari Facebook, apa reaksi kita? Memilih untuk berhenti dan menyahut seruan Tuhan, atau meneruskan aktiviti kita sambil hati terus menjerit.

"Sekejap sahaja lagi!"

Mana satu reaksi kita? Tersenyumlah. Kemudian tanya diri kita, apa yang terlalu penting pada dunia sehingga ia menjadi sangat susah untuk ditinggalkan berbanding menyambut seruan Ilahi? Sedang berdakwah? Oh, jangan begitu. Rasulullah, manusia yang paling sibuk berdakwah kepada umatnya itu pun berhenti tika Tuhan memanggil untuk sujud kepada-Nya.

Ayuh. Tekan sebentar butang log out itu. Bangkit, sujud dan rukuk kepa Tuhan Yang Esa. Solat itu tidak semestinya lama, namun jangan pula tergesa-gesa. Ikhlaskan hati. Kemudian, teruskanlah kehidupan kita seperti biasa sebagai seorang hamba yang benar-benar ingin ke Syurga-Nya.

Wednesday, December 11, 2013

Kau Pemilik Cinta~

For my dear future zauj.. #111213

Oh pemilik cinta
Betapa dapatku rasa 
Indahnya bahagia yang mendakap jiwa
Dalam kesepianku Kau hadirkan dirinya
Peneman menuju syurga....

Oh Pemilik Hati
Sungguh Kau Maha mengerti
Lemah diri ini hidup bersendiri
Dirinya seperti cahaya yang menyinari
Indahnya bak bidadari...

Semua persoalan bertemu jawapan
Tiada lagi kebuntuan mengganggu fikiran
Kesyukuran ini melimpah di hati
Betapa agungnya kasih-Mu Ilahi

Oh pemilik hati
Betapa dapatku rasa 
Indahnya bahagia yang mendakap jiwa
Dalam kesepianku Kau hadirkan dirinya
Peneman menuju syurga....

Benar ku akui
Jarang ku lafazkan
Kata-kata penghargaan atas pengorbanan
Namun hanya Engkau Maha Mengetahui
Betapa dirinya amat ku hargai...

Kau penawar duka
Menjadi penguat dijiwa
Walaupun bertalu diuji
Dirimu tetap setia disisi

Oh Tuhan...
Kau yang Maha Tahu
Cintaku padanya tak pernahku ragu
Ku pinta kekalkan cintaku
Hanya bersamanya di syurga-Mu

Wednesday, December 4, 2013

Alhamdulillah..I found U~



Ku bersyukur pada-Mu Tuhan
Yang telah menghadirkan dia padaku
Sungguh ku akur pada-Mu Tuhan
Yang mendatangkan makna dalam hidupku

Terima kasih pada-Mu Tuhan
Yang mendatangkan Aisyah

The above song & lyric has connection with my post. I'm listening to the song while i'm writing this post. Yeahh, it's one of my favourite song by Khir Rahman. Its lyric means a lot to me. Fall in love w this song after watching Balada Pencinta Movie.

Yeahh..i praise to Allah for sending u to me. My life has changes since i met u. Alhamdulillah. I feel blessed. And up until today, i always think that i'm dreaming. I didn't know what happened, but suddenly all i know is i'm not the person i used to be, i admit. A lot of things happened since i know u. It's true, nothing is impossible if Allah wills it for u. And i really hope Allah will always keep me on the right path. In shaa Allah.

Our prophet Muhammad (S.A.W.) said, "The hearts of the children of Adam are all between two fingers of the Compassionate’s fingers like one heart, He directs it in any direction He wills"...

Now i'm starting a new chapter of my life. Everyday is my new chapter & i will face the day by filling it with good things that i can do to search "barakah Allah". I'll try my best to be a better muslimah because it's not fair for me to have a good man like u if i still like i was before w/out any improvement. I must put my love for Allah first before u because He's the one who sending u to me.

I believe w Allah's promise. A good man is for a good woman & a good woman is for a good man. Now, i see Allah's love & blessings clearer. Allah took away one love but blessed me w abundant including His love for me. He sent me wonderful brother like u who is with me from day one till today. U're the answer of my du'a. MashaAllah! I never regret for what i went thru all these time before coz if i didn't..i wud not become a woman like what i'am today. Thank You, Allah.

Till my next post~

Sunday, December 1, 2013

The new beginning~

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.

As I sit down facing my lappy & start to blog, a number of thought cross my mind. I don't know where to start or what to write about. Yupp..its been a while since i have many things to say in my blog before. Honestly, i happen to think that its better to disappear. But now i'm a bit fresh. Thanx to someone who has changed the perspective thought of mine :) 

U know what..I was really in a bad shape. Really, i was. It's never ez to stand when the storm hits.'s hard. But that's exactly the point. By sending the wind, He brings us to knee..the perfect position to pray. Indeed, i was tested by Him.

Alhamdulillah, i'm feeling good & hv made a lot of progress. A lot of things happened for several months ago but i can't yet share it w u..In time i'll say. I'm happy, healthy & very positive. Surely Allah has answered my du'as. Patience does pay off. My iman is so high right now & in syaa Allah it stays that way. I've been able to take the time to analyze myself & what i want outta life. So now i can say i've figured out what i wanted. Alhamdulillah i don't regret anything that has happened, but i see it as a great blessing. 

I keep myself busy with worship of Allah. Every day i try to be a better Muslimah. But i knoe it's not easy at all. I still need to study & learn a lot of things in Islam. To be honest, I've done a lot of sins & i thanked Allah for sending me 'him' to make me stronger & a better person.

He gave a big impact on my life. He made me think of things that i never have thought about it before. He made me wanted to be a better person, a better muslimah to be exact, a good daughter to my family, a good friend, a good wife to my future husband & a good mum to my future kids..In shaa Allah..Guess who he is :)

People say..if u already found someone that cud make u change to a better person, please hold them close. Because u will need them for the rest of ur life. And yes, i do. I'm having a totally new life right now & it has just began since i know him. Syukran ya Allah.

And yeahhhh..there's always a chance for us to be a better muslimah. Allah always gives us time to change. Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. once said "If tomorrow the world ends & u have seed in ur hand, go & plant it". It means..even though tomorrow u're going to die, today u still have time to change. Allah always gives us time to change.

I would like to point out that the change was not easy, it had its own complications, yet it happened because Allah willed it for me. Alhamdulillah ya Allah. I have often faced trouble but that's just part of being on the right path.

"You may be put to trouble not because you are doing anything wrong but because you are doing right". Quaid-e-azam Muhammad Ali Jinnah

Till my next post~

Sunday, August 4, 2013

Spring Cleaning Home~


I'm so busy cleaning our home lately as Eid Mubarak is just around the corner.  Preparation for this raya are now full swing :-) week before Raya are usually about chores, getting the house cleaned up, dust free, squeaky-clean windows, television & monitor screens & also the ceiling fans as well. I'll be very busy this whole weekend for next week's i'm taking the time to blog now before i completely go missing for a while..again & again. :-D

I tell u what..yesterday & today was such a hectic day for me. The whole day i did spring cleaning. Yeahh, spring cleaning. All ALONE! Huh!..I can't stop thinking how to get this house ready. Such a big house with many rooms & living w large kitchen & dining rooms. Ohh my. Yesterday i'm done cleaned up our living room on the ground floor & change the curtain. Carpets will be rolled out a day before raya. Today I made myself clean the dining room. Now my ribs feel so tired, weak & bruised..


Living room on the ground floor

The old curtains already took off.

My lil bro who volunteer to help me.. :-)

Captured by me from the ladder

New curtains are ready to be put up


T.A.D.A....The new curtains :)

Looks so beautiful..isn't it..

Shine bright like a diamond. Lol.

This is our living room..


The dining room

In progress...................

Ok well, aside busy cleaning home..I still had time to bake a Moist Chocolate Cake for Sam. Yeahhh, he just reached his home last night. So take a chance to meet him around 4 in evening. U know what, he bought me two Tudung Aidijuma & Bionic contact lens for Raya. So happy! Another thing he gimme is Ferrero Rocher. A bit surprise ya! Feel like he loves me too much! Thanks dear..

Aidijuma Garden & Aidijuma Kerawang :)

Those things he gave me. Thanks my Dear Sam.
Love u more!

Till my next post~

Friday, July 26, 2013

I'm Home :-)

Assalamualaikum wrm. wbt..

First post during Ramadhan. Alhamdulillah, Ramadhan Kareem is here again. What a blessed, Thank You Allah for this opportunity to celebrate Ramadhan again. I'm feel so grateful as this time is different as I'm celebrating it with my family. I still remember when i'm young i only looking forward to celebrate EID, more focus on the 'angpow' & new clothes & food too. But as we grow older we learned & upgrade ourselves to be a better muslimah. Alhamdulillah these days i'm enjoying having Ramadhan.

Owhh ya, fyi i'm at my hometown now. Hehe. That's why i haven't post anything in two weeks since i blogged about Sam's birthday celebration. Yeaahh, don't have much time for blogging. Busy at home looking after my younger brothers as my parents went to Kuala Lumpur & Jakarta for holiday, AGAIN! They just can't stop travelling & shopping u know. Huhu. Alhamdulillah, they're already home now. :-)

Well,since i back home earlier than what i'd planned before..much time  i'll spend at home with my family. Andd yeahhh.. just stay in my room all day! Hahaha. Mind you, I'm a person who  is very seldom going out of my room. I mean..I just  busy doing my own things. 24/7 in room;  facing my lappy,  get into internet connection,  watching dramas & movies, reading books, teaching my brothers & sometime i go downstairs enjoying myself singing at our home theater. But during this Ramadhan, i'm a bit busy helping my mum prepare all things for iftar. :-)

What a messy! Need to re-organise them~

It's my bedroom! Gotta clean out my wardrobe~

I tell u what, i just finished clean out my messy closet two days ago. I hate being messy but sometimes with all clothes, shoes, bags etc plus don't have time to clean them all, it becomes impossible. Seems like I don't know what to do during my holiday, i decided to have a walk-in-wardrobe. Plus I've brought  two big bags of clothes from KK which were locked up in my wardrobe there for so long. I've tried chucking them all but there is so much i want to keep. It really difficult. My shoes & bags are everywhere in my brother's apartment. So gotta bring them back to home too.

Hence I'm trying to clear my wardrobe here, so much stuff i've never worn. I started think i should get rid of them, anything that doesn't fit or don't like much anymore. It took two days for me to re-organise my stuff.  Btw..I've given a lot of my 'baju kurung' to my cousins and some of my shawl to Sam's niece. But still have much remain. So I just put'em into  bags. I cannot longer afford to waste my time or wardrobe space on salvageable.

Yeah there it goes. Little less messy than before. :-)

My clean bedroom. Aha! :-)

My shoes. Still got more& more than this but don't hv enough space for them.
Yeaahhh...I'm a very big fans of Carlo Rino & Sembonia! last I'm done cleaning my bedroom and re-organise all my stuff. Now i'm feeling so much better & so glad too coz i'm home. 

Till my next post ya! :-)


Tuesday, July 2, 2013

It has been a while......

Assalamualaikum wrm wbt...

Ohhh poor blog...It has been a while since my last post on My Soul's Sincere Desire. I've been meaning to visit here. I swear i have. It's been weeks & weeks. I've not posted anything new in a very long time. Very busy in my life. That's why i don't have enough time to spend on my blog. Now i'm back on line again. So there'll be more to come. In syaa Allah :)

Baiti Jannati @ Semporna Town

I just come back from my hometown several days ago. U know what, it was two times i'd been going back home. The first time was when my parents went to Kuala Lumpur on 15th May for holiday and the second time was on 5th June when they performed Umrah with my grandma. I'd to go my hometown coz there's no one can look after the house & my little brothers.

I was tasked to send my lil brothers to school everyday, started helping look after the house, doing all the cooking, cleaning & acting as a parent & guardian off both my lil brothers. Lucky my mom asked my cousins to accompany me at home. Alhamdulillah, i was very very happy when they were willing to stay with me for a couple weeks eventhough at first i was a bit worry about their stays because we're not close & we don't see each other very often. I thought it would be awkward & uncomfortable to share bedroom with people who not close to u but u know turned out different...we were getting closer everyday. 

  Evening around my house~

Talk all night long, sharing our stories, gossiped about boys (things never end!), did pretty crazy things..and one thing that i'll never ever forget is..they taught me how to cook (i'm not much of a cook actually)! :-) Everytime they cook, they'll gimme the recipe and tips how to cook it. And  i would stand around & silently observe. Yeahh, it was time for learning from observation. Oh ya..I tell you what, everyday my cousins will cook for us. Lol. It was the most embarrassing thing that happen at home while my parents not around. Hahaha. Forgive me cous..I'm super duper bad at cooking u know. Maybe next time i'll cook for both of u. In Syaa Allah.

Another thing i learnt from them is how to buy & choose fresh fish & vegetables. It becomes our routine to wake up early morning to go to Fish Market Semporna everyday. was my very first time went there. Overcrowded. People busy - bargain price! And yeaahhh, same goes to my cousins too. :-) Well, i think..after this i will go to market buy some fishes & try negotiating the price myself. Hehehe.

My Ride @ Semporna & Kota Kinabalu#Silvericious

The more we spent time together, the stronger the bond we had as cousins. I'm so happy to get to know them closer. Even it took only for two weeks, it really worthwhile. And now i'm start missing them! Till we meet again, my dear cous~

Bonding Moments with My Cousins
One for the Album

Accompany me attending my friend's sister wedding~

Lunch outside#KFC#While waiting for my LOVE Sam~

Taking pix @ Floating before back home

Happy time w them#Pix taken by my LOVE~

Time for us#My LOVE + My lil brother = My HANDSOME BOYS

After attending 'kenduri doa selamat'#Around Mabul Island Jetty#Release tension~

Can't stop play w the camera#Baju Kurung is the best attire

Just reached home#Around living room#Saving memory

Tea-time#Fun Fries+Orange Juice

In front of Seafest Hotel#Our last day outing together

The three of us#Igal Lounge#My Silver Camry :-)

The most fav. activity at home#Karaoke session all day & night#
Non-stop! Morning till midnight~

Till my next post~

Friday, May 10, 2013

My Soul's Sincere Desire~

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.

No words can describe how i'm feeling right now. Tossing & turning in bed does nothing to bring me sleep. I just keep thinking about Mecca since last night. Ya Allah, I really want to go to Mecca to see ur beatiful house, Kaabah, to see the Masjid, to smell the air, touch the ground, pray Salah, to recite Quran..How great to walk in there where our beloved Prophet (s.a.w), sahabahs (r.a) would have prayed, sat, did dhikr. Great feeling just even to think. May Allah grant us all the means & access to this beautiful Masjid.

Watching my siblings did Umrah makes me really want to. My father accompanied them to perform their umrahs last year (2012). It was his second umrah trip after had the first trip with my mother a week before accompanying them. How lucky they are for had the chance to experience umrah with family. To be honest, i was a lil bit sad cuz i can't join them together as i still busy with my study at that time. Plus, my dad asked me to perform Hajj first.. then going for umrah anytime. Hmmm, i can't wait to step foot there, REALLY!

And now, i really really wish i can perform Hajj this year. I tell u what, i've already registered for Hajj since 2009 with Tabung Haji. My parents planned to bring me & my grandma to perform Hajj together with them. But till now our name still not in the list for Hajj. Actually my mum & my dad already performed Hajj before they were married. Yeahh, since they were young. So, this is their second time for Hajj..In Syaa Allah..Wish we'll perform Hajj together. Wouldn't it wonderful..right? :)

We've been waiting almost 4 years for our turn to go. Mind you, the waiting list actually is not short. It can take more than 20 years for ur turn to arrive! But i believe that..our 'rezeki' is still not there yet and maybe He gives us much more time for preparing ourselves for the greatest journey in our lives. I really hope this year we will going for Hajj. May Allah make it easy, if not bearable for us, to prepare for it, and may He accept this as part of our effort in planning for Hajj, if in the end we didn't get to make it..

With that said, i urge my friends, to set aside some of ur money & save up for the fifth pillar of Islam. U have to perform ur ibadah while u're still able to do. Not when u're too old & too weak to do anything. If one day Allah ask us why didn't we go for Hajj when we had the time to do so, we can say that we have already registered & waiting for our turn to go, instead of having no reason at all for not going. We should embarrassed that we have the time, the money & luxury to go for holiday all over the world, but we didn't have time to go for Hajj. May Allah shower His mercy on us, and witness that we can, to perform the final pillars of Islam, that is to perform Hajj, In Syaa Allah Ta'ala.

Aamin..Aamin..Aaamin ya Rabbal'alamin

Sunday, May 5, 2013

Tika Bidadari BERBISIK~

Daripada Ummu Salamah, katanya,
"Aku bertanya, "Wahai Rasulullah! Adakah wanita 
di dunia lebih baik atau bidadari?"
Jawab baginda s.a.w.
"Wanita di dunia lebih baik
daripada bidadari sebagaimana yang zahir
lebih baik daripada yang batin..."
-Riwayat al-Thabarani

Alhamdulillah. Bertambah lagi koleksi bahan bacaan peribadi. Sangat teruja occay!
It's one of my favourite books & I really enjoy myself reading it :)
Bagi kaum wanita yang sedang berusaha mempertahankan jati diri sebagai
seorang bidadari dunia, buku ini amatlah sesuai dijadikan sebagai makanan jiwa
dan fikiran anda . Terdapat banyak kandungan yang menarik untuk dibaca bagi
mengukuhkan keyakinan diri kaum wanita. In syaa Allah, naskhah yang dipersembahkan 
oleh Siti Farrah Shahwir & Noraini Ismail ini dapat membantu kita untuk terus hidup
bernafaskan kalimah syahadah. Sememangnya bukan mudah namun kita
haruslah bijak mengemudi akal yang telah dikurniakan-Nya. 
In Syaa Allah Ta'ala :)

And i really love this poem. I found it in the book.

Dahulu aku tidak mengerti.. 
Erti cintaku padamu ya Rasullullah..
Aku sukar memahami perjuanganmu dan pengorbananmu..
Malah aku tidak merasa detik penderitaanmu..
Dan aku sangat sesali kini..
Tatkal senja mula berlabuh..
Laut asyik merungkap penat dan letih..
Terimalah janji baruku..
Untuk mengenalmu dan mencintaimu..
Terimalah aku sebagai umatmu..
Kerana rupanya aku rindu...

-Siti Farrah Shahwir-

Monday, April 8, 2013

I'm sick~

I've had a pretty bad cough for a few days, but today it seems to have get worse. This is really suck because i can not study for the examination that is just around the corner. Ya Allah, how can i get rid of it asap. I've been down with fever, sore throat, head throbbing, flu, cough...huuu, you know the drill. 

I tell you what, i rarely get sick. Some people can catch a flu or fever very often & easy, but Alhamdulillah that i get it very rarely get sick. But once i'm sick, i'm really sick. Aaannndd now i've been stuck in bed for a few days. I want to get well soon. 

Yesterday i was forced to take Panadol Actifast & drank two bottles of Air Cap Badak. Alhamdulillah, it's working because the fever reduces.  Yet the cough getting worse! Oh my, the cough is a nightmare. Coughing until i throw up. A deep hacking cough that racks my whole body. It makes me hard to sleep at night.

Anyways, i really hope i'll get well soon. There's so many things i should do. Hopefully my body will recover by tomorrow. It's times like these when u really wish u took better care of urself :( 

Till my next post~

Monday, April 1, 2013

Destinasi Syurga ~ Normarini Yaacob

Alhamdulillah. Malam yang sungguh tenang. Aku baru sahaja selesai membaca sebuah buku islamik bertajuk 'Destinasi Syurga' terbitan BSP. Alhamdulillah, bingkisan ini sangat bermanfaat. Bukan sekadar cerita cinta biasa..tetapi ia juga membicarakan soal hati, jiwa & perasaan manusia. :)

Bertepatan dengan tajuk yang diberi 'Destinasi Syurga',buku ini memberi rasa keinsafan & kesedaran kepada muslimin & muslimat dalam mengecapi kebahagiaan hidup di dunia & akhirat juga  memperolehi cinta yang abadi kepada yang Maha Agung, In sya Allah ta'ala.  
Sememangnya buku ini sangat sesuai dijadikan bahan bacaan kepada sesiapa saja yang ingin mendapatkan tips & panduan dalam mencari kebahagiaan & meraih cinta sejati di dunia juga di akhirat.

Cinta Allah..
Mutiara yang agung & suci
Permulaan rentak diri insani
Menyemai rasa tawaduk & rabbani
Lahirlah akhlak mahmudah yang sejati..

Cinta Allah..
Bukan mainan hati & perasaan 
Tetapi kewajipan yang harus dilaksanakan
Bermujahadah melawan nafsu durjana
Melawan syaitan musuh utama..

Cinta Allah..
Perlu ada istiqamah
Pertahankan kekuatan rohani & jasmani
Hati perlu tenang menahan godaan
Agar terbentuk jati diri hakiki

Merebut cinta Allah...
Khazanah pengorbanan suci
Bekalan iman & taqwa
Buat menyusuri

"Pasti akan mendapat cintaKu orang-orang yang cinta-mencintai kerana Aku, saling kunjung-mengunjungi kerana Aku, dan saling memberi kerana Aku."
...(Hadis Qudsi)..

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